First Blog

Ok so this is my first blog. I wanted a blog to put my random thoughts down but right now, just not ready to attach my name to this. I want to be random. I want to be able to put my thoughts out there about family, friends, work etc. but not really ready for them to know it. I am not a typical girl and don’t have tons of friends to talk to so I thought I would go top secret on this. Then I can put my thoughts down and people can judge the blog and not me. Whether you believe it or not, people always judge. It is in our genes. We judge, we talk about others behind their back, we snicker, we tease. Have you been to post secret.com? That is what I wanted, a blog for me to talk about whatever I want, no matter how awful it seems to other people. This is my life. Sometimes I wonder if I am living it correctly or just off in a fantasy world. You don’t have to comment or if you do ever leave your name. I don’t care who you are and I don’t want you to care who I am. But I know you will….

I have a friend, I will call her Frog. I love Frog to death, she is one of my BFF’s. But Frog has other friends (as she should). Frog gets pissy with them and tells me all kinds of stuff behind their back. Now we are grown, I mean really grown. We are not in our twenties or even thirties but yet we still act like middle schoolers. I so wonder if Frog gets pissy with me does she talk about me. What about my parenting skills, or my home life that I want private. I don’t know but I can tell you that this is why no matter how long we have been BFF’s, she doesn’t know anything about my private thoughts or feelings. She knows enough but the REALLY big stuff, well only I know those. I have secrets, I don’t tell anyone. Kind of big ones too. Great Gossip stuff. But I can not tell her, I really dont trust her. I guess for now those will stay with me. Maybe I can talk about them here since here – i am just butterfly.