I am bored. When that happens all kind of things go bad for me. I get bored mostly in the winter time. I tend to start looking up old friends, I should not be talking to. I also get a crush on someone. I call it my winter crushes. I know married people should not have crushes but I always do. I get so bored looking at the same person every day. People tell me, do things to keep in interesting. All those little things I loved 15 years ago, they just make me ill now. It gets worse every year. One day I am worried my crushes may get me in trouble. I love the way it makes me feel when someone knew smiles at me or flirts with me. I love to flirt back. I know this is how it starts but I always just move on before the flirting gets me in trouble. The kids are getting older and I feel like I need a change. Something different. I wonder if this happens to my spouse? I know I won’t ever leave or do anything to hurt my spouse but sometimes I think, if my spouse left I would be ok with that. I would be lonely but I am a strong person and I know I would be just fine. I can not wait for summer. Then I am too busy to have a winter crush.
